Hey everyone, how are you? It’s been a while since I’ve written directly to you all. Even though I’ve been blogging it felt weird that I hadn’t checked in and said my hellos; especially on a platform that’s predominantly made me who I am today. So, HELLO! What a weird, confusing and uncertain time, right? It’s almost as if you’re just waiting for something else to happen, what now universe, what now??! First you take away my freedom, then you take away my lifestyle.
Upon reflecting, I’m once again amazed by my resilience and strength. I’ve had many feelings of nostalgia, what was supposed to be’s and what should have been’s. But all those derived from my own plans and not God’s. It’s funny how you have a vision of what you’d like to happen and when it gets stripped away you’re like? God, I thought we were mates? And then when you hit rock bottom, you’re constantly questioning everything. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t.
The days leading up to my 24th birthday, I had a strange feeling that my life was going to change for the better. I somewhat felt uncomfortable, like it was time to enter the next chapter of my life. Maybe it was a coincidence that my birthday was approaching, maybe not. I had no idea how or exactly when this would happen but the gut never tells a lie. Before, It was almost as if I was living in a fast-paced world; X needed to be achieved before Y, otherwise I’m doing life completely wrong, A needs to happen before B otherwise I’ll fall behind my peers. C and D needs to be completed before Friday, otherwise I’d look unserious.
I can finally say I’ve pressed the slow down button and mastered the art of just being. Being still without having a sudden urge to do something productive, being still without feeling like I’m losing in the race to success, being still and practicing gratitude; I’m alive and well. It’s so easy to let life just ‘happen’ to us, it’s so easy to just exist, and navigate like lost puppies. Moving into a state of reflection and allowing myself to FEEL. To feel the trauma, to feel the bounce back, to feel the good, to feel the bad. To remember that life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it. Life is funny, and our maker has a sense of humour. As soon as you stop the pity party and practice gratitude, your breakthrough comes to play, slowly but surely.
Are you going to unload your unfortunate baggage on others or are you going to use it to help you grow?
Let me end this post by saying RELAX.
If you want to spend the day snacking in front of the TV, do it. If you want to start that youtube channel, start it. Do what you want, be yourself, stay safe, love God, love people.
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